When my depression hits me hard I cry all the time. I try to put my focus on my son and hide my feelings from him. Which honestly, I think it makes it worse on all of us. He is 13 and he understands more then I wish he did. I was in the hospital and I was so mad when my husband brought him to see me. But then I realized he shouldn't be left in the dark, it is more confusing for kids if the situation is not explained to them in a manner they can understand. There are so many times I wish I could just get in my car and drive just drive along way away and never look back. But, running is not the answer either. Just take a few minutes each day maybe a walk or something to clear your mind the best you can. Yes, I know it is easier said then done. I hope you get to feeling better soon.