I recieved an email back from academic advising and found out that I can't take another term off. I would have to withdraw and then when ready be reinstated. I took the leave of absence to figure out what I want. I know that counseling is a decent fit, but I find myself doubting that choice. Part of the reason for the doubt is fear. I'm afraid that I won't make it through and get my degree. ANd that my mental health will suffer being in the field. Do I have enough resources to make it through? and then the question of "will I choose to be reinstated?" Will I go back if I choose to withdraw?

It's a huge choice. My options are to return back end of August or take more time off. I don't know when I have to decide by. I'm in the process of finding answers.

Or another option is to wait on my education and continue where I am, gaining more experience. And then it hits me, a wave of emotion that I'm not even coming up with a word to describe it. The honest truth is I don't know, but I do know recovery is possible. Then I think of all the people that I could help return to humanity by compassion and empathy.

I want to be a force for good, to undo my past and be able to say, "I got this" Am I ready ?