I'm just so confused. Here is my back story. I started at 14 to feel mean emotions that seemed foreign from mine. It didn't really seem like a totally different person. Like with mannerisms or things. I mentioned to a DID specialist and she said I had DDNOS. This was prior to 2013. I was also seeing another therapist she said I didnt. I believed her and left the DID specialist. Fast forward to about 3 years ago. I started having weird thoughts pop in my head, arguing etc. My new therapist thought I had DID. I had her talk with the original doctor that diagnosed me DDNOS and I started seeing them both. My DID therapist just kept pushing me saying talk with them, do this and do that. I tried to tell her they wouldn't conversate when I asked them to. She insisted they would. She insisted I had DID and now my other therapist was convinced as well. Fed up with her insisting I could speak to them and they spoke back etc. I left. I stayed with the non DID therapist. Now she isn't convinced I have DID. She says she thinks I have dissociative tendencies though. She said she thinks the "voices" (which aren't voices but thoughts I just dont think up on my own) are something I created as a way to escape hard emotions created from a rough childhood. They started when I was 41 though. Anyway, she says to ignore the thoughts. Thats helped just I dont know if I should be doing that. The thoughts are dying down. I dont want to ignore them if they are alters but they don't talk back so maybe they arent alters. Also, if they were alters their thoughts wouldn't have died down by ignoring them, right?