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Old Jul 18, 2020, 02:27 AM
FluffyDinosaur FluffyDinosaur is offline
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Originally Posted by BethRags View Post
I got a shiver when I read what you wrote here ^^^

I feel exactly the same way. I don't ever bring my family into my "mental illness realm" because it feels so...like there's a spotlight on me...and I hate that. They could think I'm shameful - or they could find me annoying and boring. But of course, I feel very isolated and misunderstood.
I know exactly what you mean about feeling isolated and misunderstood. My therapist has been trying to get me to put that into words but I'm finding it difficult to really explain. It's good to see that I'm not the only one who feels that way. Have you also had an increase in those feelings now with the covid situation and its impact on therapy?

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Originally Posted by BethRags View Post
But what I posted is incorrect; I recalled incorrectly, that is. I had taken my husband into the 3 therapy sessions with me not to discuss my mental illness, but to discuss how to manage the anger between us. It was many, many years ago, but I remember thinking, "My anger is part of my mental illness, can't they see that" - but not saying those words aloud because I didn't want to focus on *my* MI.

Yes, I agree that anger is definitely part of it (for me it's a result of irritability). I think it can be difficult for others to really acknowledge that. In a sense I wish they would, but in another sense I'm not sure I want people to "forgive" me for it because it would make me feel like I'm not being held responsible for my actions, which would make me feel as though I'm being treated like a child, if that makes sense.