I realize no one has been on here since 2014, but I am hoping to open a line of communication. I feel like we are in a desperate situation.
I have bipolar, and most of the time it's pretty manageable.
But here lately, when it comes to PMS, my emotions are beyond way over the top.
I have scared myelf and my husband.
I have little to no control over not just my emotions, but how I react to my emotions.

The week after July 4th I was suffering from PMS and didn't realize it. I was manic. I was filled with irrational worry and anxiety. Example: I burned eggs and panicked and freaked out. I was crying and shaking. I didnt calm down until my husband hugged me very tightly and squeezed my pressure points on my upper arms. I felt so stupid when I realized what I had done.

Then last weekend, I can't remember what caused it, but I was screaming, throwing things, and having a full blown temper tantrum. When my husband tried to hold me to calm me down, I just banged my fist into his chest screaming at him to get away from me and let me go.

The good thing is he didn't let go. He held on until I "came to." Once I snapped out of it, I just collapsed against his body and melted down until I was exhausted from crying. The other scary thing about these episodes is I dont remember what triggered me or the the things I say to him. It's like a bipolar black out.

I don't know what is going on, but I know we can't keep doing this every month. It's been like this for the past 6 months. I litteraly feel like I am insane.
I know that I am 44, and nearing menopause. I'm not sure if this has anything to do with it.
We have no idea what to do.
I'm scared to add another medication to what I am taking already. We've tried it twice and both times were Not good times.
I'm asking for advice, but also asking if any one else has similar feelings? I feel so alone in this right now.