Dear @
sadp8r, Thank you so very much for your post! God bless you! You speak for many of us so well! I'm not bipolar, but on every other level I am the way you describe. And I am so very sorry about the loss of your 2 friends. I couldn't help crying. That is so extremely, painfully sad. I hope with all my heart that you will be able to find a way to some sort of peace & comfort for yourself. I will keep you in my prayers. And like you, I feel that PC has been extremely healthy for me, & I'm very grateful I found it & all of you!