@BeyondtheRainbow: I'm so sorry you're struggling so much. Pets are very much family, and they love us unconditionally. It is extremely difficult to lose *anyone* you love, but even more so when they have loved us unconditionally.

I'm also sorry to hear about you soon losing a person you love. That's just really difficult, especially after the loss of your fur baby and the whole plague thing going on.

Please take good care of yourself, and whenever Charlie crosses your mind, try your best to divert those thoughts to the good times you've had with him. Even though I know pets can't speak, I'm sure if they could, Charlie would want you to remember the good times you had with him.