King or.. uh ... Queen of de Nile. Me.

I have been rather hoping this would all just up and go away back where it came from. Instead I spent my "work" day browsing transsexual web sites. Everything I read says I should be obsessed with either cross dressing and/or surgical sexual reassignment. I am not, therefore I am not one of "those people".

Or am I...

I did a little thought experiment. A room full of people are sorted into men on one side and women on the other. Pretending I am so androgynous (I am not) that I could sort myself to either side and be accepted by all, which way would I go? No question I would head to the women's side. If it comes to "us" or "them", my "us" is women and my "them" is men.

Hmmm.

I also took an online test called Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality Inventory or COGIATI. I have taken it three times and come up with 3 scores 150, 200, 175. Some of the answers were hard to choose from, so each time I took it I tried to recall what I had used before and use the close alternate instead. Today was the 175 score.

Score: +130 to +389,COGIATI classification FOUR, PROBABLE TRANSSEXUAL
What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality
Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially
feminine, but with some masculine or androgynous traits. It is very
possible that you are a candidate for a diagnosis of transsexualism. You
show a strong degree of gender dysphoria. At the very least, further
investigation should be undertaken. Your COGIATI score places you
among the majority of those diagnosed as transsexuals, the 'late onset'
transsexual.

Hmmm.

Now what? As I rode my bike home from work I though maybe I am really fooling myself. Maybe I should at least try cross dressing. I wonder what my wife has that might fit? I even looked thru her stuff in the closet. No can do. It is too much to even consider.

So what to do? Nothing! Sit down at the computer and just tell you all about it. That is the story of my day.

PS: If you have any curiousity what this test is, here is the link: http://transsexual.org/TEST0.html

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