Hi everyone. I haven't been checking in here for a while as I have been too exhausted battling a bad cold that worsened my Fibromyalgia/CFS. My energy levels are improving now, and pain levels down so I am encouraged. This morning I got an email from my pdoc's office advising me that he is stopping practice on the 30th July. I see him Thursday then I will have to find a new psychiatrist. This is very distressing as my current pdoc was my best ever and I feel so safe with him. He got me stable. No one else could in the previous decades of treatment. He has people he recommends I go to but that does not mean they will be a good fit for me. Also he didn't charge me above the government rebate so my appointments have been free. If I have to pay it will be around $200 for a 15 minute consult.

Although I am stable my physical illness is wearing me down and I have had a lot of SI. I am safe now but sense I am close to the edge. Not a good time to be changing doc's. It is also just a big hassle that I don't need right now. I have seen so many mediocre or down right terrible psychiatrists in the past I am scared I will be stuck with another one then have to change again. This is stressful. Sigh ... Thankfully I see my T on Wednesday and can rant to him about this. Maybe he has heard of some good psychiatrists in our city. At least I am not in the middle of a bad episode but my stress levels are high. Just when things were calming down and falling into place this gets thrown in. All I can do is roll with it, do some research, and hope for the best. It may be months before I can get an appointment too. Sorry to be ranting away. This has really thrown me.

Edit; Great, I just found out my GP has recently left her practice too. She was the best GP I have ever had, and was very understanding about my mental illnesses. The practice she has moved to is further away. Far enough to make me try to find a new GP closer to home. Gosh, I hope my T doesn't announce his retirement on Wednesday. On top of this I am at the beginning of a carefully planned two year taper off of Benzo's. I need someone who won't rush me and put me into withdrawals.