Pain level isn't bad, unless I put pressure on my right side of my face. I keep thinking of what to do for today. And what the dentist will say/when the appointment will be/what work will say. I have 4 hours to wait. I should sleep.

Why can't I be normal? Why did the bullies have to affect me so much? I hate my life. I don't know what I want. I know what some tests say, counseling or psychology would be a good fit. But will I be happy? Will it be too much? If it wasn't dark out I'd go for a walk. I'm thinking too much. Calling seems like a bad idea, yet I know it would help. But what can you do? I'd be getting feedback. Instead of I don't knows. I want to move out. Having no money is an issue.