Christina,

No matter what I do with reading for information I'm still in denial. If I could see that I'm manic life would be so much easier. I know when I'm depressed but manic nope. Cause I can hide it mania from people which I don't do deliberately. People don't know I'm manic. They just think I'm happy. I hate that I'm like this as it makes my life so difficult. Having to live about 4 different lives. If I had the creativity in me and I had physical concrete information that I could see i could go ok i give up i have bipolar. But im struggling.