So my first appointment with T is on Tuesday...and I am really dreading it. I know it's something I need to do, and it will probably help, but I just don't want to, I am NOT looking forward to it AT ALL. I am going to follow through with it, I just don't feel like I'm ready. But one of my friends said I'll never feel ready enough to, so it's sort of a 'leap of faith' if you will.

Bottom line...I'm scared.