Since my earliest experiences with intercourse, things always felt a little off, as if I wasn't feeling as much as I should. I also had periodic lower back pain. I also had boyfriends who complained that I was "loose". For two years I felt ashamed and avoided sexual partners, while seeking advice from doctors who would often see my fresh young face and say everything was fine. Then last year, I started realizing that when I did a no.2, hours later I could feel more feces just sitting in my rectum through a 'bulge' in my vaginal wall. I tried to manage this best I could for the year, eating lots of fibre and drinking lots of water. My boyfriends didn't seem to notice the problem during sex, and most days things were fine. Then two weeks ago, this bulge started happening every day. When I tried having sex, by boyfriend said things felt strange and I didn't feel much. I am so sad, I have read online about a condition that sounds like what I have and it sounds like it is unfixable. I am just 24, attractive, and I love sex. I can't bear to think that I will have to contend with this embarassing disorder for the rest of my life. It is hard enough to meet someone I care about, then to have to tell them about such a weird, gross thing. I'm at my wits end.