i could cry! i've needed so badly to hear that this is a big problem for others!! it's like words from my mouth... i NEED to go out but i'm afraid of what will happen, who i'll see..but i can't stay home because i'm afraid someone will come by. you'd think someone stuck me in the dark with the boogeyman when my doorbell rings or there's a knock. i have literally taken my kids to a windowless room to 'hide' shushing them the entire time... just to find out it was my brother or some other acceptable guest at the door. i can't handle my phone ringing either. i keep all phones silent and only check voicemails with a cigarette in hand.

please oh please someone tell me that this will just go away on it's own... i can't deal with doctors (or anyone else for that matter)

this is why i love love love the computer... a world i can handle

even IF reading a new email can be stressful..

family doesn't understand..say i'm 'obsessed' internet...don't they know how desperate i am to be active in society and this is the only way?