I am leaving him. I made the mistake of calling one last time to get answers and though he picked up the cruelty he showed was mind boggling. He literally picked up just to tell me that he was “going to **** his new girl friend in 30 seconds” and hung up on me. The disgust I still feel over it has knocked me into a bit of a disassociated state of shock. But maybe that’s better than the despair I felt...? I just don’t understand how someone can act like that. Makes me feel like the last 15 years never happened. And that I’m worthless trash and easily replaceable.