Many thanks for the reassurance. It was needed. (((everyone))) I really don't know what I would do without this place

My boyfriend came up with this (speculated) theory:
"Maybe some or all of the alters in a way represent the extreme of one (or more) of the core's personality trait(s) and the associations that the core has towards people who have that kind of dominant personality trait. I don't mean that there is only one dominant personality trait in each alter and that they are extremely one-dimensional, but more like it's a personality trait(s) of the original core that gets more focused in one alter."

-heart sinks- "What did I do to deserve this?" (also another difficult thing - to accept that you're worthy of something good)

I guess he was implying the same as you guys - that she is a part of me (though to be honest, I don't feel like a "core personality" - I'm just out the most). I still find it quite difficult to accept because I wish I could be like KT - strong. But when I think of the abuse to which she is connected - that situation really required strength.

I look forward to the day when the system can work together - it seems that there are a lot of assets in this system.