I haven't checked my pulse in a long time *checks*.. 71bpm...

It is beating nicely. I have tamed it. And I still get to use a stimulant.

Before atenolol, I used to lie down on the floor all the time and check my pulse because the slower beating made my OCD go away - But I had to be constantly checking my pulse.. and when I wasn't checking, I had anxiety about checking.

I told my doctor that I'll stay on the atenolol for another year or so. He said that I can go off of it any time I want and if it doesn't work, just go back on it.

I have so much to write about and so much to do but I have to chose what to do with my time wisely.

I'm gonna focus on mysticism, spirituality, philosophy and meditation while listening to music. I want to keep a balance of that and amateur scientific research and logic (Cuz I'm out of the matrix now).

I bought 1-2 months worth of medicinal fungi.