Okay, well, good news and bad news. Bad news is there is trouble. Good news is I have finally recognized it.

Was lying in bed meditating when I began having thoughts from 15 years ago when very ill. Thoughts about how I basically have two different brains with this bipolar. 2 different IQs. 2 different personalities. Memories of weird exam scores. 2 of everything. And I do basically believe all that. 2 different lives. But, when I identified all this years ago, I was also very manic. So, I am extremely manic. Not euphoric, not dysphoric. But my brain is clearly in a very different state right now. So, gotta be careful. Ideas of reference, hyperreligious, etc.

Anyhoo, just putting it out there. Gonna need some help to be sure nothing terrible happens. I have had bad things go down when manic. Gotta tell pdoc.

Hugs and love to all.