It can be scary how all human relationship wax and wane in nuanced ways, when we want them to be steady and immediately available.

I really believe therapy is co created, and it isn't always the client's issues or emotional reasoning that sparks abandonment fears.

For example, maybe your T had a fight with her mom before your session and had less to give, and you correctly sensed that, though got the attribution/ consequences wrong.

What would the opposite scenario look like? What would she do/ have done to create a situation in which you felt sure she would be there for you and had no abandonment fears today?