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Old Jul 22, 2020, 09:33 AM
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Originally Posted by fern46 View Post
2 brains. That is an insightful way to describe it. Now that I think of it, my mom had two episodes like these. She kept calling herself a two headed llama.

Some pretty great thoughts came forward and I was processing information on another level altogether. I wrote a lot of it down for later when I have some distance when can process it properly. While I appreciate the insightful flow of ideas, the ideas of reference where I see what is happening inside my mind everywhere are frightening. The synchronicity gets to a certain level and its just too much. Time kinda stops.

I'm so glad you've decided to get help. You're jumping on it at the right time. I hope he gets back to you asap. Sending supporting vibes your way and hoping they can give you something to cool the fire in your brain. Holler if you need anything. I'm a week or so on the other side of it. You'll come through ok. Hang in there good buddy.
Yes, thank you. The fear. That is what convinced me. Fear of my own thoughts, of my brain's duality and simultaneous synchronicity, as you so aptly put it. It is terrifying to realize I am not who I really think I am. I am two different someones. Two lives. DID-ish, in a sense. Spooky. I am not in cotrol of my faculties. I never was. Something else is.
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