I haven’t quite been with my T two years yet but trust him a lot, we have great rapport and we are doing trauma work. I have two BIG trigger buttons with him where I totally shut down or get really nasty with him.
Thought one... trusting your T and feeling safe enough for certain topics are two totally different things. I may trust my T but not trust my ability to cope until the next session. I may trust my T but not trust something else... doesn’t negate my trust in T it just means other things need done first.
Thought two... safety is a hard one. My T has a lot of experience and tons of training in different types of therapy. We tried a lot of things before getting to what helped me feel safe. Once we figured it out processing MOST trauma came easy... some things need a different feeling of safe (aka my two big triggers)... and we are working on that. The pandemic has taken away what we were able to do that made me feel safe. Some of it, thankfully, was internalized so we can keep going on some things but other things have to wait until we can go back or find a new safe. Safe has ebbs and flows and even catches to it sometimes.
My T will ask me if it is OK for us to talk about X, or can he talk about X in general not expecting anything from me. My T will also ask if it is OK to talk about other people’s experiences with X.