so you do realize, don't you, that once i write this 1,000 word essay you 'assigned', i am going to send it to you? heh. I really don't need to write it though. I already know the ultimate answer to the question. It takes me farther away from myself. So I need to stop listening to it. Really, I need to write about how I FEEL about that answer, and start figuring out what the hell I am going to DO about that answer.

That's the crux of one of my problems, of course, the fact that I spend way too much time thinking and worrying and planning etc and not NEARLY enough time actually DOING.