Session with R today after I had skipped three. (The first two I had told him that I couldn't attend and had shown him the letter that my building wouldn't have electricity for two days between 8am-3pm. on my normal session days, but I didn't reschedule). He had said previously that I called him if I wanted the session if not then didn't.

"It's over, it's finished"

"We had some good times and that's that."

I said I thought I had a choice if I wanted to come or not what if I couldn't have afforded to come every week.

"I don't care you've really done it. Pushed it too far."

"That it was pointless I was wasting his time"

"The fact is that I'm going away for my summer break and this is your attempt to say I'll show you."

I said he could leave the session- we were sitting in silence this was interpreted as "my dominance ordering him out and that I had to have the final word".

I told him he was so focused on my anger that he forgot shame. That I didn't feel like I could face him because I was jealous of his family and I was ashamed of being so weak in this need for him.

He said I had two more sessions before his break and we could end things on a positive and that he hoped to see me.