I did. My mom is an alcoholic (and possibly a narcissist.) My dad is a recovering drug user-although he never full joined a program. The two are completely codependent. Though I was well provided for, I think I never came in first emotionally. My mother’s needs were always the priority. And my dad would defend her at all costs regardless of how she treated me. He only called her on her s*** if she attacked him in some way.
I started watching a video on trauma bonding. I think some of my garbage may be grounded in that...?