Avisa, your purpose in life makes so much sense. You seem like a wonderful person. I remember when I was about 18 years old, I began to have serious doubts about God. And I remember writing an essay to the effect that what could life's meaning possibly be, without God? Now, I am not what is called a "believer" but I believe there is a higher power of some kind. I'm not an atheist. It would be hard for me to imagine being an atheist -- there is just so much massive evidence of a higher power all around and within us. Thank you, Avisa, for contributing to this thread.