@Xonyx I am sorry for the loss of your mother. It sounds rough.

I hear you about loss of identity. When my dad died 3 years ago I had to reinvent myself because some of the things I was living for like having them accept me the way I am were no longer valid since they were dead and I could no longer try to convince them to accept me. I think we were very different people and it was not that he would not accept me, he did accept me as best he could, but we were just very different people. So I am living more for self care and less for trying to get people to accept me.

Hope you get the support you are looking for. Feel free to reply and or personal message me. @CANDC