My T said this to me today. When i told him i M unable to do some self care. No matter how much i want to, i plan to and i try to.

I fail. It overwhelms me. It feels too much.

After i told how i had tried to do xyz and couldnt.

“ do you think you will feel better if you did xyz”

“Yes”

“And You dont want to feel better?”

“I do”

Well thats why i am in therapy, thats y i m attempting self care and talking about it with u.
Because it’s important to me and i m unable to do it.

This one question of his has sent me several steps back. Why would he say that? He thinks i m intentionally trying to not get better???

I feel more sad, depressed and now i m back in my dark room and dont want to go out. I m even skipping work tomorrow. I just need to self reflect.

Am i reading his question wrong? I dont know why this question from Him hurts so much.