Well I have decided to go back on my psych meds.. I honestly do not think they will help, but I am ready to shatter.

I will call my pdocs Nurse Jane and tell her I just forgot my lamictal for a week with Steve being so sick and have to start over.. I can not just hop back on 300xr mg a day.

As for Latuda I have the 80's they are not a med that can be cut, So I will just take it, I seriously doubt it will be a problem. The Doxepin is 50mg, I use to take 100mg a night in hopes that it will help me sleep so no problem there.

I honestly hope I will just be a zombie for a few weeks but I seriously doubt that will happen as meds in general never cause me sedation anyway.

I am going to take Ambien 10mg nightly along with some Xanax and maybe some Doxy too.... Ambien offering me sleep wont last long anyway so the hell with it I just dont care if it poops out quickly.

Stick a fork in me I am done