Sounds like you are going through an exceedingly difficult time right now and you still have to decide on what to do? You mentioned not having an alternate option if you don't pursue a career in Counselling.


I also notice you mentioning that one of your motivations for becoming a counsellor is a drive to help and empathise with others. I wonder what your overall goal might be. Is this direction the only way you feel you can help others?


Which ever direction you choose I am sure it will be the right one for you.