So I bought some groceries for the week to help me eat healthier. If you’re following the diet thread, you already know I’m doing healthier alternatives, not necessarily the best for me. I bought things I know I can enjoy— Cheerios and skim milk is perfectly fine for breakfast. I know lots of people don’t like regular cheerios but I prefer them. I bought some fruits (strawberries and blueberries) and nonfat yogurt, great value beef sticks that are better for you than slim Jim’s believe it or not, some chicken breasts, and lean cuisine and smart one meals just to get me through until I can plan out some meals for myself. And the staples — eggs, stuff to make salads (to introduce me to vegetables lol) and stuff like that.

Coke/Pepsi zero sugar will be a lifesaver — when I crave a soda I don’t have to feel guilty about it. Soda has always been my downfall. Coke Zero sugar has been reformulated and revamped from its previous “coke zero” label. Let me tell you; as a big soda drinker it’s almost like the original with only a hint of that aspartame taste. Pepsi has an aftertaste or aspertame but is still very good. (I bought both to try and see which I liked more). So there is my saving grace.

So, for someone who ate out 6-7 times a week and drank more sodas a day than he would like to admit.... this is a radical change towards better eating habits. It’s not the best and I know there are some empty calorie snacks involved but overall I’m making progress. I’m going in the right direction; it may not be the best, but it’s much better than before. I’m just looking to keep off the weight I lost by eating healthier. It’s not about losing weight or counting calories or fat or carbs— I’m conscious of that, but there’s not hard and fast rule for me there. A conversion from fast food to less , non processed food is enough to make me lose weight no matter what I eat. Haha. I’m happy to find better things with less sugar to keep my beer gut from developing again and limit carbs for the same reason. No reason I can’t have bread or pasta, just not everyday or not a whole lot: Anyway, I don’t mean to go on and on, just when I start something new I get passionate to share it:

So I made a music playlist which I call “let’s process it then”. It’s a list of songs that have personally touched me and I relate to that deal with a lot of my issues. Right now I’m having to work through trauma from 20+ years ago because of repressed memories. Bad timing, brain. But I can’t just avoid it. Litttle by little everyday. Express some emotion, listen to music, write a little ... but move forward.

Not a lot going on here. Enjoying my days off, and I’ll do some light cleaning and finally clear my car of and bring in all my stuff. It’s about time, right? Haha

I’m making life changes. Moved to a city, faced a lot of my fears, making healthier eating habits, loving how I look and it makes me feel good. I’m on track to really be living the life I’ve always wanted for myself— one built on my wants, not proximity and convenience. I have to take the good from all this. It’s a question I ask myself — where am I going? Am I on track to bring me something positive or am I stuck, or worse going backwards.? Right now, I don’t have the ability or run, skip or jump through my life... but I’m walking, slowly, but walking towards the goal That makes me happy.