Actually lately I've been feeling like doing charcoal drawings of how I've been feeling tho I'm afraid the images will be "Dark" ....maybe I'm afraid of how I've been feeling with so much suffering and death everyday as I can hardly sleep anymore. I stay home alone all the time . . I'm not in a crisis cause PC helps me connect with people ,with friends .. who understand ....
I cry every night cause it's almost like I can feel all the suffering in the world ...I feel guilty if I try to watch a comedy .....
The past 15 years I e been so we'll except for a relapse in 2013.. but my art is mostly uplifting about nature and Christmas . In my teens and twenties when I just did pencil drawings ..times I was feeling the way I do now I would draw these dark and disturbing pictures of graveyards and death ... I'd keep them for a time and tear them up and throw them away
I'm actually afraid to do any art now for fear of what images I will create ....
I don't know if any of this makes sense ..I hope it was ok to write what I wrote .. I'm just not sure if I should pick up a pencil or brush or charcoal or not these days ....