It is me to some extent, but it’s also other people. But 2 person can undervalue me and I feel like Everyone undervalues me. Ugh. God my mom. Yea, but as far as myself, I’m always pushing my limits on my brain. My intelligence. I think, “if I can do this, I wonder if I can do this”. And I go further and further. I just keep going and I can’t stop. I love learning and knowledge and I like to read books and things that push the limits of what my intelligence could do. Idk how to explain it. I have this obsession with pushing my brain to complete tasks, as far as intellectually goes, until I pretty much get sick (nowadays). I seem to have been doing this since I been sick. My brain showed me what it could do with being sick and then while I was sick (you keeping up?), I kept pushing it further and further. And that’s partially how I got into philosophy.