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My step-father sexually abused me between the ages of 9 and 17. When I was 15 I tried to tell my mother. She entirely denied it; her words were, "You have misunderstood him, he doesn't know any other way to show that he loves you. It's his culture."
WTF.
So I never said another word, the step-father's abuse continued, I was raped by a guy when I was 15 and beaten with a motorcycle boot by another a year after that, a boyfriend, for refusing to have sex with him.
I never mentioned any of this to anyone, ever again, until I got into therapy.
When my mother was very old she suddenly said that if she had known what my step-father "was doing" she would have "killed him."
I told her not to worry about it. Of course she had known, but she had her weird relationship with him and she sacrificed me for it. But I still took good care of her when she was ill and aging. At least I can be proud that I chose to be forgiving enough to do so.
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