TRIGGER WARNING--ABUSE

Had visons of my damnation over nt. Apparently, God is madder at me than I adjudged. Understandably. I have been far short of the mark.. He also seems to be trying to tell me I had something awful done to me when I was one or two. Maybe nanny? Visions of her also. Turns out I do have features of DID when I cycle and have evidently been having focal aware szrs since infancy, likely. Some other neuro stuff, blind in left eye. Likely, an undiagnosed neurodevelopmental thing. Maybe mor schizophrenia than pure bp. Anyway, rough.

Hugs and love to all. Just very sad.