Finished work. I don't know what to do now.

I'm depressed.

Psilocybin microdose capsules every other day, ketamine nasal spray that I can either create or get infusions by the doctor, etizolam solution that I can make for relaxation and a replacement for benzos (Because it has low tolerance) and o-desmethyltramadol for it's SNRI and opioid effects would help.

I haven't had psychosis in like a month though.

I suppose I'll just wait everything out. Things will be better.

I'm going on a hike with my mom today. She probably wants to go and do something because she's not going to drink wine for 2 weeks.