Des, look, if u did best on an NMDA antagonist, just get one--there a re several and u r smart. Pick one, read more about if it is not ket and play with it. U love playing w ur meds. So, just do that. But get a glutamate drug. They r the only things that truly "cure" all hundred percent of my symptoms. Problem is, they hose short term memory and if u ovetshoot, u end up manic and often psychotic for stimes days or longer. That is why I cannot take one.

Hugs.