I was just seeking opinions and advice in general which I received. I have not met him yet and don't know when we will meet if ever given the current situation. I am lonely at times and he fills my void. I understand that since he is married, I won't be his priority in life. Right now, he is helping his mother who is dying. He rarely talks to me now because of his situation. However, he has stated he wants to come here to retire one day. But, since everything is up in the air, I don't know what will happen. I do like him as as person because he is supportive of me and gives me advice. I really don't have any other friends because I got sick and tired of telling people about myself and asking them to understand my situation. I have not always done well as some people know here. I have written about my times with psychosis but miraculously have recovered to the point where I am now living independently and working. I feel fine except this man has been my only vice. He is a vice because I know he is married and probably does not take me too seriously. But, he wants to be with me when we meet. So, I am wondering what to make of it except that he is nice and understanding. May be, I'm wasting my time on him, but truthfully I am not interested in a regular relationship now because I need to really focus on my work and myself.