I’m so sorry it still hurts. Mine is still new-12 days-though we’ve been separated 5 yrs. prior to the separation, we’d been together 10yrs. All told, it was 15 years. We were supposedly working twd repairing damage and making things work....it still feels like the floor was ripped out from under me.
Did the hurt of it all dissipate any? Is there anything you’ve found helpful? Have you expressed any of this to your new partner-esp the fear of it all ending yet again?
I know I still have moments where it feels like the breath was suddenly sucked right out of my lungs. I even woke this morning remembering the feeling of his body next to me in bed and the realization that there’s someone else (he ended things by cheating on me & with a 21 yr meth addict he moved in with him after 1 month) with her head in that space on his chest. Waking up to feel that level of devastation makes it feel impossible to move forward. I truly hope the sadness goes away eventually. For ALL of us.