I'm sorry you are struggling with this. I have found myself wanting to be as little as possible for a while now. I feel like a scared little child much of the time. It started well before we lost our beloved Schnoodle recently. But that has made it just all that much worse for me. I've pretty-much stopped frequenting the Games forum. There's just no pleasure in it for me anymore. I hope you begin to feel better (& stronger) soon.