okay, so i disagree with my pdoc about going entirely off of prozac because this is the best i've felt in months.

i think i'm hypomanic. sleep is slipping away from me more and more every night. then there's the fact that i'm so antsy and restless, there's no relaxing rn. i can't chill out, just sitting and writing this is taking an amount of focus i'm unsure how long will last.

impulses are high and i'm spending money i shouldn't, i'm trying to work on that the most. but hell, i was so depressed. i was on 40mg before and my pdoc told me to get off entirely, but i'm still taking 20mg, shh.

this likely a bad idea and will bite me in the ***, but i'm not ready to go back to depression again. i hate it. i hate not being able to get out of bed, not wanting to ever eat and all i do is try and sleep. no, i don't wanna go back to that.. at least not yet.