I have a history of working, then taking breaks from my jobs before returning. At this job though, I've been there for a year. It is only 4 long days per week, so I want to try to hold onto it, because it's rare to find a schedule like that with a long weekend. I need all the free time I could possibly get, because I have a really hard time managing my moods. motivation, etc. My boss made an accused me of something today, and it made things so much worse.

It takes every little bit of energy to make it through the day. I have to force my self to stay focused and break down the day before my work week every single time. When interactions with my boss or co-workers go wrong, I go from 0-100, although I usually hide my anger from her and lash out in other impulsive ways. I have also been paranoid and suspicious on the job in the past. Also, it is hard to put on a smile and pretend that everything is okay when it is not. I know this is common, but it is especially hard to do when you have a mental health condition. The social anxiety is bad too, and I probably wouldn't have made it this far if we weren't working from home the past 5 months. I feel so awkward in staff meetings and lost in my thoughts. I'm so disconnected from everyone.

Anyone relate or had similar experiences on the job when trying to manage having Bipolar Disorder, either in the past or present? It would be helpful to hear from different perspectives or feedback. Thanks for listening.