It probably is playing a major role, but it’s more than that. It’s like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place. I can’t move up or out. I have no one in my corner and I don’t feel I have support. I have to live day to day and it’s exhausting. I don’t believe in not having dreams of achieving higher or looking past work-home-work-home-rest-work-home......

It’s frustrating. My mom is hounding me constantly now that she Knows where I am. All prospects of teaching are out the window, nightmares are controlling my daytime and I’m exhausted and irritated. It’s just a bad situation all around. No one has time to help me, including me:

I’m just fed up. It’s too much for too long, you know? (P.S just to be clear — NOT SUICIDAL).