Oh god yes. I got another invitation for a neighbors zoom meeting. I unintentionally slept thru the last one. I have been trying to get off the invite list for the last 3 years.

I just feel like, i dont live up to some level of socialization that this group feels it is their godly mission to help me meet.

I want something PERSONAL from people if i am going to spend time with them, and i just dont get any of it from these folks. I dont know why.

So yeah, what you said. Somehow they dont see me or hear me. But they want me to answer "present". But it is such an effort for me with them.