I have several fears relating to death/time

I'm not scared of the actual process of death, it's going to happen- and I think I'm at peace with that, I'm going to die, just like everyone else is, that's how thw world goes. time doesn't stop for no one.

but: I don't want to die alone. in an ideal world I want someone with me, holding my hand as I take my final breath (and I don't have family, so this is a worry that I might not have that.)

my other worry about death is that my final wishes won't be followed and done how I want them to be done.

I have all ready planned most of my funeral, the songs that I want played, the fact I want flowers, the fact it's going to be small, and I have even said what I want done with my body. I just worry that in life, none of my wishes have really been accepted and followed, nor will this- and if my final wishes arn't followed, then what do I have in life?

I said I had anxiety with time, that is: am I making the most of my time on earth?. am I going to get to the final few hours, days, and be happy?. or wish that I have longer. their is so much to do, and so much I've not done

I just don't know if.... well, I've lived life like I should. I don't know.

and I suppose re: things I'll leave behind, me too. their's going to come a day where all the things I enjoy doing (breav, listen to music, watch tv, listen to bird sounds)) it isn't going to happen

one thing I struggle with as far as that goes, is that even though I'm dead, back on earth people are still going to be doing it. life goes on without me. that's what is going to happen and I really don't like the idea of that- makes me anxious to think that I'm going to die, their's not going to be much of a pause in life, things are just going to cary on