"Recovery" seems like an odd description of it to me. For me, I tend to use the phrase "move beyond."
I think I've done that. My history of abuse is now where it needs to be: it is in my past. It wasn't for most of my life; it lived actively in my present even though the actual events were decades before. My therapist always said his goal for me was to help me put that history in its rightful place so that I wasn't carrying it with me all the time in my present.
I have gotten to that place and have been there now for nearly a decade. I have moved beyond that history of abuse. Life is much lighter without that baggage.
That doesn't mean it doesn't come up from time to time. I carry a PTSD diagnosis, and while I rarely display symptoms anymore, every now and then it rears its ugly head. The difference now is that those moments are brief; I know how to handle them healthily; I don't spiral into more severe symptoms like I once did. I can move beyond those moments quickly and pretty much unscathed.
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