The ideal situation is to be able to comfortably talk with your psychiatrist. I’ve never really dealt with anyone who is thorough or showed real concern for me. I have a new psychiatrist who I do not have much confidence in because during the initial assessment and review of previous diagnoses etc. He made comments that I felt off putting and out of line, but It’s a personal trigger, not a universal one. He meant no harm by his words and I know that. But it makes me apprehensive.

Above all that, this depression is kicking my butt. I cancelled on my therapist because I just didn’t want to talk about all this anymore. I certainly don’t want to express it to my psychiatrist who I have even less Of a rapport with. My old psychiatrist directed the conversation — how is X Y Z, ok I’m doing {whatever}, give this to the receptionist. It took 5 minutes. This new one wants you to talk. That’s not a bad thing, most of the time...

I don’t really want med changes because I’m afraid tweaks or switch ups will only prolong my depression if I have to adjust to the med or worry about wide effects from higher dosages. This is something I do NOT feel I can bring up to him. If he makes changes he makes changes: I can’t really do much there. I’m in a bad place and he’s the doctor, his opinion should mean more than mine right now.

So, how to you deal with your psychiatrist? What kinds of things are pertinent to your medicine maintenance and what can you leave out? Any advice on where to start? I kind of thought I would make a bulleted list of depression markers.

I’m dealing with what I have right now. I don’t have time to find a new anything. So please, understand while that would be the best situation we’re dealing with what we have as it’s needed now.

It’s funny too, I realized something interesting. When I’m stable and feeling Ok, anxiety is an issue for me. When I’m depressed, there is no other issue. It consumes me. I just think that’s strange personally.

Anyway, that’s it.