Down. Cried a few times today. Got upset while making dinner and can’t eat. Left the family to eat and sitting in dark room. I know only I can handle my own problems now and not to look to my h. I’m eating myself up inside over our son who doesn’t call. H could have the idea to call son and tell him I wish he could call sometimes, but he doesn’t get any such idea in his head, even after that has happened and been an issue between us before. It is a trigger for me. But, I do not want to be codependent anymore, so I am not going to say anything more about it. Still, bad mood and upset, ruined dinner for myself and look like an A hole to my family. I told other son I am probably messed up from all these changes to meds, probably true, and am very sick. Forget me, I’m very sick.