So now I’m on pins and needles about this. He is not going to reach out to his parents in the height of a deadly pandemic where we could get it at any moment and possibly die.

The drama of the wedding is long over and we were trying to move forward. Obviously, he has much worse feelings for us than just that issue. He is completely turned against us, simply has no thoughts of us, or abandoned us for his wife.

I just have to accept this is what it is. I don’t want to call him right now either. I have to go to therapy about this and maybe increase meds for anxiety and learn to cope with this horrible feeling.