I'm not religious, but I'm sure that if there is a god, he knows about your mental health and understands why you acted the way you did. I don't believe an all-knowing benevolent god would punish anyone for things that are essentially out of their control.

Maybe it could help you to consider what you think is the nature of god. If you believe that god is rational and/or compassionate, then perhaps that can help your worries. After all, punishing someone for things they can't help is not rational or compassionate. If anything it would make more sense to help that person.