“Does anyone else get that?” — I live and breathe that entire post! I’m doing better now, but there was a time where I just gave up trying. I didn’t want to rebuild my life and I saw no reason to fight so hard just to achieve a “normal” feeling or live “normally”. I was so unhappy and I was just fed up with trying.

I’ve never shaken that feeling entirely, if we are to be honest and there are days it’s the predominant mentality and emotion that I feel. But what tends to help me is to remember I won’t always feel this way. No matter what, I can rely on that. Today I just can’t give a darn. As my therapist once told me — it sounds counterintuitive but let yourself feel these things, but qualify with “today” or “right now”.

For example: yesterday was horrible for me. I was frustrated and annoyed and scared..this medicine debacle and my mind and I fighting over it. I was absolutely ready to just throw it out the window and say f it. I gave up caring about it... for that moment. I came back later, calmer and made a decision to try to follow doctor’s orders.

So, if you’re fed up, you’re fed up. But say to yourself “I’m fed up...for now. I need to distance myself from these feelings for awhile.” — do something you enjoy or at least something to occupy your mind.

So my advice ? If you need to throw your hands up and say “I’m done!”, that’s totally ok, as long as you realize that feeling won’t last forever; and it’s a temporary “break” from what’s causing the issues. Trust me, there are days I say “ugh, I just can’t even.... today.” And leave open in your mind and heart that at sometime your perspective will change and the world and situation will be seen through a different lens.

Maybe it’s not the most practical advice but I find not trying to minimize my feelings, even the crappy ones, to be a big help emotionally. But please don’t take this the wrong way — you have to stay safe and that’s priority too. SH or suicidal feelings aren’t something to normalize. So with those things, don’t follow my advice. I’m talking about general emotions of being “fed up” particularly.

I hope this helps. Stay safe and always make that a priority for yourself and others.

MarcusAurelius